Feeling depressed.

I shouldn't feel this way. I should be thankful. Grateful. Not depressed. I've got the opportunity to have a wonderful career with this new company. Why do I feel like crying all of the time. I do not want to be away from my kids. I feel so guilty. Like I'm putting $ before them. I do NOT want to go back to work.

I keep telling myself that if I just work for a while and pay down some bills, that I can quit in a few years...but by then, Ab will be in middle school. And I'll have missed such quality time with them.

There are people who would love to have this job. I'm just not one of them. I'll do it, and I'll do it well...and I may even grow to enjoy it. I can only hope that I will adjust.